Why was the temple destroyed?

Its important to know how much God loves us and wants us to Love Him. This is seen in the first commandment through the story of Exodus. God essentially birthed the Jewish nation. God also breastfed the Jewish Nation with the Manna. This is seen in Numbers 11:12 where Moses cries out to God saying I did not choose to birth and breastfeed this nation.

Why did God feed them Manna? God could have made fruit trees grow in the dessert. He could have made any food occur, but He fed them Manna because He wanted the nation to be dependant on Him. God knew that if they had fruit trees or vegetables they may think that this was from their own doing and forget about God.

Indeed before they entered the land of Israel God warned multiple times that it will be a land flowing with goodness and God begged the Jewish Nation not to forget about Him. Yet of course they are an ignorant nation so they thought all the good they had was from their own doing and they forgot about God.

There are many commandments that are only relevant when there is a temple. God saw that the Jewish nation had forgotten about Him. God thought that perhaps if they had less commandments to keep then they will recognise God again and return to the basic 10 commandments and remember the very first commandment and return to loving God.

So God sent His messenger to destroy the temple. Now what did the ignorant orthodox Jews do? They decided to add more man made laws on top of the laws they could keep. So they moved further and further from God and to this very day they still think that their man made wisdom and man made words are better than God’s word.

God says not to add or subtract anything. THERE ARE NO EXCEPTIONS!  It doesn’t say unless it’s made by a Rabbi or unless its to beautify the commandment or unless it will serve as a fence. Ignorant Rabbis think they know better than God Himself. So why do they need God when they can use their own ignorant brains to make rules?????

So we live in a crazy world where Orthodox people are taught that if they don’t want to wear a black hat they may as well eat pork. They have no clue as to what is GOD’S LAW.

Let’s look at how further ignorant orthodox rabbis are.  They  pray and say “HE should build us the temple.”

Is it befitting for a King to build his own castle? Is it befitting for a father to build his own home? So they have forgotten God’s law, they have no idea why the temple was destroyed and then they have the audacity to ask God to build it for them. Bunch of idiots.

They don’t know how to worship their king. They don’t know how to honour their father. All they know is how to honour the ignorant Rabbi’s and  commentators who make changes to God’s Law.

So what do they need a God For when they have all the answers in their ignorant brains? What do they need from God? They have their man made wisdom and man made laws which they hold onto even though they contradict God’s law. So let them keep worshiping their idols which are these other Rabbi’s and commentators and forget about God and we will see where they end up.  The only reason they are still around is because they keep singing the song so God realises how ignorant they are and forgives them.

God should bless them all because they are so obviously ignorant that only God can save them from their idiotic selves

The temple will not be rebuilt while they fail to recognise God and God’s law. So keep praying from your prayer books you idiots.




Ultra Orthodox Jews have taken the concept of prayer and stuffed it up so much that it is obvious that yes they are ignorant people and can not be held accountable for their sins.

God want us to call out to Him from our hearts. This is written repetitively throughout the Bible. All God wants is for us to speak to Him directly with our own words and from the depths of our hearts. This is the prayer which God speaks about in the bible.

Ultra orthodox Jews in their ignorant and misconstrued view of God’s word decided to write a prayer book. They made all these MAN MADE laws relating to this prayer book.

They claim that you can only talk to God at certain time- THIS IS FALSE you can talk to God at any time and He will always listen.

They claim that you can only talk to God in Hebrew and you have to say every single word- THIS IS FALSE.  God actually wants us to use our own words. God wants us to see Him as a father. As a parent would you prefer that your child came to you and told you in their own words how they were feeling or would you prefer they read the same  words every time they had a problem? Yes Orthodox Jews are truly ignorant. God bless them and hope they heal soon.

Now we have a more important question and that is why do Orthodox Jews need God when they have their own Rabbi’s and Commentators who know better than what God says in the bible????

Bunch of idiots.

Who is God?

The bible gives us a few major clues on who God is and how we should relate to Him. One is where it says that man was created in God’s image (Genesis 1:26). This lets us know that God wants us to view Him as a human being with human emotions.
When Moses asked God who he should tell people God is. God says “I will be what I will be.” (exodus 3:14)
What does this mean? This means that God will be to every person whatever they want Him to be. If they want Him to be Male or Female, Black or White, African or Asian, In the Heavens above or in the Earth Below, In the air that surrounds them or any where at all- This is what God will be.
God doesn’t care how people see Him. God wants every person to view Him in a way that they can relate to Him. See Him however you want to see Him just believe in Him and call out to Him anytime you want. He will be there for you.

So what?

In the ultra orthodox world I was brought up to think that ultra orthodox jews were superior to all other people. I honestly believed that only ultra orthodox jews had morals. I honestly believed that non frum and non jewish people lived a life of sin.

It took me a long time to stop looking down on people who weren’t ultra orthodox and to start looking up to them. I was brainwashed from a young age that religious people were good and not religious people were bad and goyim (not jewish people) were the worst. While this message wasn’t taught to me in those exact words, this was the message I received.

Years of being told that if you do mitzvot and follow the stricts ways of god you’re a good person so the others must be bad, right?

On my frumless journey I came up with the attitude of; so what?! When I asked about how someone was and I was told they are good but they are with a goy. My response became, so what? When I’m told someone is not reigous I say; so what? What’s the big deal?

Once I realised that people who were not religous and not jewish actually had morals and lived honest lives free from the ultra orthodox ways. I finally realized that these people were amazing people. Once I learnt not to dislike someone because they weren’t jewish or religious. I realized it’s ok to talk and mix with these people. That they are not criminals and sinners. Once I realised this I began to pity the religious I pitied the close mindedness which prevented them for seeing the good in others. I pitied the close mindedness which caused them to dismiss a person based on them not being ultra orthodox.

Still today many judge me as a bad person due to my beliefs or lack thereof. Its hard to see a person based their morals alone. I have morals- plenty of them. Just because I don’t dress a certain way and keep the sabbath and pray doesn’t make me a bad person in the real world. In the real world these things don’t matter. In the real world you’re judged based upon how you act. However to many ultra orthodox people I am a terrible influence which needs to be kept away from their sheltered homes and small minded communities. Even some of my siblings are ashamed of my open and outspoken beliefs. Isn’t it sad that in this day and age people still have to worry about how their siblings behavior will effect their shudduchim (marriage arrangements). 

Well I really am sorry but I’m not going to put on a show for you or for anyone. I have one life to live and if you don’t like the way I live it, So what?!

The day I stopped caring

One of the things which has been drilled into my head from a very young age is that I must always worry and care about what other people think.  We are taught that as a religious Jew you have a great responsibility to act and dress in a befitting  manner so that you don’t cause a bad name for the Jewish people.

One of the hardest yet most rewarding part of my frumless journey was to break away from this mindset.  This was extremely difficult as it really meant changing the process of my thoughts. This was something which took me many years to accomplish.

I had known for a long time that the ultra orthodox ways were not for me. I knew that they were unhealthy for my wellbeing, however, I felt as though I had to act religious for fear of what others would think. I felt as though I was two different people; one who was perceived as being extremely religious and another with my non religious/ non jewish friends some of whom I never told I was jewish. Those years were very difficult. Its so hard to know what you want to be yet fear so much what others will think.

One day I had enough. I was emotionally drained from having to put on the religious facade. I thought to myself why do I still care?  I thought about the worst thing that would happen if I showed the world my frumless self. I figured that the consequences of  being openly non religious were easier to live with than having to pretend. I thought that maybe people wouldn’t want to know me when they realized that I wasn’t religious and I just didn’t care any more. If peopl didn’t like how I dressed I didn’t care. If people saw me driving on shabbat I didn’t care.

That day I stopped caring what others thought and started living my life completely frumless with no religious persona was a feeling of absolute  freedom. Finally I was free to live the life I wanted to live. Free from strict, rigid rules. Free to make my own choices about my life and how I wanted to live it. Finally I was free.

I  wish the ultra orthodox world stopped teaching people to care so much what others think. It’s so unhealthy. Instead they should teach them to do their best and when they make a mistake it’s ok. We don’t have to be perfect. We don’t have to be someone who we are not. The most important thing is to be able to accept people how they are and not try to mould them into something their not.

Women and Judaism

Raised in the ultra orthodox world I was taught that women are valued and have a unique role. I was brainwashed into thinking that women had rights. As I grew older I saw the role women play and how discriminatory the Jewish religion is to women.

There is a blessing in the daily prayer which men say which translates as “thank you god that I am not a women “. This blessing says it all. A women’s version of the blessing is translated as “thank you god for making me as I am”. A women is not allowed to thank god for not making her a man. (I have always wondered what blessing a transexual would say.)

I was taught from a young age that despite this very obvious discriminatory blessing, it’s only because women are so special that the blessing is the way it is. That men have so many more commandments to keep because they need to constantly remind themselves of God.  Women however were created so much more complete that’s why they only have 3 commandments to keep.

As a child I believed what I was told, especially because it came from brainwashed older women. Now I have broken away and I can use my common sense. The reason why there is this blessing is because the prayers were written by men. Women didn’t know how to read for ages in Judaism. (Although women in judaism did learn to read prior to women in secular world) Women didn’t need to pray because that’s not their role. Women looked after the home and the children and the men made the rules.

Men were glad they were not a woman because they had authority. They were the boss. Even today when women are more equal the men in judaism are still the boss. This is shown by every  single ultra orthodox rabbi being male. A female can not be a Rabbi in the ultra orthodox world.  Only the men can make the laws. Only these male rabbis can answer questions even about women’s issues.  There is no female  voice within the ultra orthodox  rabbinical world. The Beth Din (Religious court judges) can only be male judges. This can be so traumatizing for a women who needs their help and must be judged by three male Rabbis.

So we live in a world where women can be anything they want  (even a man if they desire) yet a women can never be an ultra orthodox rabbi. The ultra orthodox world is still run by men and women voices are unfortunately not heard.

Don’t give my baby herpes

It has come to my attention that a disgusting and highly unhygienic practice is currently being used in some ultra orthodox sects. During the circumcision ritual there is an old tradition for a mohel (person performing the circumcision) to suck the blood out of the babies wounded penis. Nothing anyone can say to me can justify this practice.

Firstly putting your mouth on a baby’s genitals is wrong. This is a line which should never be crossed. Ever.

Secondly, an 8 day old baby has virtually no immune system so they can easily become unwell. When a baby catches an illness things can progressively get worse very quickly. When a baby has an open wound and a man puts their mouth on an open wound its an open invitation for infection. There have been cases of babies who have caught herpes from their mohel and have died as a result.

If you want to get your son circumcised please ask the person performing the circumcision if they practice this. Do not use any mohel that does this under any circumstances. Do not risk your babies health. The mohel will not tell you that they do this unless you ask. I was unaware about this as was the mum who told me how horrified she was to discover that this had been done to her sons.

This is a dangerous practice which should be made illegal.